The invitations went out. This is happening! My 50th birthday!
Last week, I recognized that I was eating too much, drinking too often, not working out as much and not practicing my routines. And not surprisingly, I am up a few pounds and feeling all those familiar feelings of “not good enough”. What I further recognized was that this was a subconscious act of self-sabotage!
Today, on the Autumnal Equinox, I give myself permission to reap what I have sown.
I accept the love of my husband and family, not because I am lucky, but because I am worthy.
I own my body and will get back on track because I have worked hard this year on my physique and am excited to show it off.
If I am up or down 3 lbs, I will not allow it to affect my performance. I am a sensual being at any size and worthy of pleasure.
I will look forward to my birthday party and celebrating with people who’s friendship I have cultivated…some over decades….knowing that they love me in spite of myself.
This year, I have worked hard on myself, inside and out. I experienced loss and setbacks, but I will not let old patterns get in my way. I will continue to move toward embracing all of me, reclaiming my sacred Self, and allowing more pleasure in my life.