I woke up this morning feeling so heavy. A weeks worth of holiday eating has left me lethargic, bloated. As I step into my hot tub, my back aches and hamstrings tighten. I really need to move my body!
I am seeing messages from fellow coaches saying “don’t let a bad week be a bad month” or “just do it”. I have mixed feelings about these messages and find myself thinking about them as I soak. To me, these messages say that I am not enough. You still have work to do. Do more. Do IT ?!? I don’t want to lose the progress that I have made in my fitness, but damn, back off! I was tired. December was a busy, stressed out month. I wanted to sleep in late, eat and drink whatever I wanted and let the mantle of health vigilance fall away. OK. I have allowed myself that time, so why all the inner turmoil? Then, it hit me. I am not battling “their” messages, but my own. Every time I skip a workout or overeat, it reaffirms my belief that I am not strong enough, physically or emotionally. It is time to stop the cycle.
According to yogic philosophy, we’re born with a karmic inheritance of mental and emotional patterns—known as samskaras—through which we cycle over and over again during our lives. This is one of mine. I am grateful this morning for the clarity to see this.